PRE-433-433. I Have Labored in Vain

433. I Have Labored in Vain

I Have Labored in Vain

A Message for All Who Carry a Sense of Failure

by David Wilkerson

December 19, 2005

[May 19, 1931 '96 April 27, 2011]

This is a message for everyone who'92s living under a burden of discouragement. As you look at your life, you'92re despondent over failed expectations. You feel you haven'92t accomplished much in life, and as time slips by you see that many promises have gone unfulfilled. For years you'92ve prayed and prayed, but the things you believe God spoke to you haven'92t come to pass. Other people around you seem to have it all together, enjoying the fulfillment of many promises, but you carry a sense of failure.

As you look back over your life, you remember all the hard times. You'92ve known rejection and feelings of total inadequacy. You'92ve loved the Lord so much, giving body and soul to please him, doing all you'92ve known to do. Yet a moment finally came when you became convinced, '93I have labored in vain. I'92ve spent my strength for nothing. It has all been futile.'94 Now a nagging sense creeps up within, whispering, '93You'92ve missed the mark. You haven'92t been effective at all. Your life is evidence that you'92ve made no difference in this world.'94

If you bear such feelings of failure, then you'92re in good company. In fact, you are standing among spiritual giants.

Many great servants of God throughout history ended up feeling they failed in their calling.

The prophet Elijah looked at his life and cried, '93Lord, take me home. I'92m no better than my fathers, and all of them failed you. Please, take my life. Everything has been in vain'94 (paraphrased).

What about King David? He was so despondent over what he thought was a wasted anointing on his life, he wanted to fly away like a bird to an isolated place. '93Oh that I had wings like a dove '85 Then would I wander far off, and remain in the wilderness'94 (Psa_55:6-7).

Even the great apostle Paul trembled in fear at the thought of having spent his life as a useless laborer. He wrote to the Galatians, '93Lest I have bestowed upon you labor in vain'94 (Gal_4:11).

John Calvin, one of the fathers of the Reformation, had the same awful experience. He said in his dying hour, '93All that I have done has been of no value '85 The wicked will gladly seize on this word. But I repeat it again: all that I have done is of no value.'94

Saint Bernard also endured this terrible despondency. He wrote in his latter days, '93I have failed in my purpose'85. My words and my writings have been a failure.'94

David Livingstone was one of the world'92s most useful missionaries, his achievement recognized even by the secular world. Livingstone opened up the African continent to the gospel, sowing much seed and being used by God to awaken England for missions. He gave body and soul to lead an utterly sacrificial life for Christ.

Yet, during his twenty-third year on the mission field, Livingstone expressed the same awful doubts as these other great servants. He too felt his ministry had been all in vain. His biographer quotes him in his despondency: '93All that I have done has only opened up the African slave trade. The mission societies bear no fruit after twenty-three years of labor. All work seems to be in vain '85 I have labored in vain.'94

One of the great missionaries to have impacted my life is George Bowen. His life was a powerful example, and his book, Love Revealed, is one of the greatest books on Christ I'92ve ever read. A single man, Bowen turned away from wealth and fame to become a missionary in Bombay, India, in the mid-1800s. When he saw the missionaries there living well above the poor they ministered to, Bowen gave up his mission support and chose to live among the very poorest. He dressed as the Indians did, and embraced poverty, living in a humble dwelling and subsisting sometimes only on bread and water. He preached on the streets in sweltering weather, distributing gospel literature and weeping over the lost.

This amazingly devoted man had gone to India with high hopes for the ministry of the gospel. And he'92d given everything toward that end, his heart, mind, body and spirit. Yet, in his forty-plus years of ministry in India, Bowen had not one convert. It was only after his death that mission societies discovered he was one of the most beloved missionaries in the nation. Even heathen idol-worshipers looked to Bowen as the example of what a Christian is.

Today, George Bowen'92s humble life and powerful words still enflame my soul and the souls of others worldwide. Yet like so many before him, Bowen endured a terrible sense of failure. He wrote, '93I am the most useless being in the church. God bruises and crushes me with disappointments. He builds me up, then permits me to fall back to nothing. I would like to sit with Job, and I sympathize with Elijah. My labor has all been in vain.'94

Some readers may say, '93Great men of God shouldn'92t voice such language. They shouldn'92t even have such feelings. It sounds like fear and unbelief.'94 Yet this is the language of many giants of faith, great men and women we hold up as faithful examples. They each endured the same awful feeling: '93I haven'92t achieved what I thought God called me to. I'92ve been a failure.'94 I know the terrible sound of that language in my own heart.

Would it shock you to know that Jesus experienced this same feeling of having accomplished little?

In Isa_49:4 we read these words: '93Then I said, I have labored in vain, I have spent my strength for nought, and in vain'85'94 Note that these are not the words of Isaiah, who was called by God at a mature age. No, they are Christ'92s own words, spoken by One '93called '85 from the womb; from the bowels of my mother '85 The Lord '85 formed me from the womb to be his servant, to bring Jacob again to him, (and to gather Israel)'94 (49:1, 5).

When I came upon this passage, one that I'92d read many times before, my heart was in wonder. I could hardly believe what I was reading. Jesus'92 words here about '93laboring in vain'94 was a response to the Father, who had just declared, '93Thou art my servant '85 in whom I will be glorified'94 (49:3). We read Jesus'92 surprising response in the next verse: '93I have labored in vain, I have spent my strength for nought'94 (49:4).

After reading this, I stood to my feet in my study and said, '93How wonderful. I can hardly believe that Christ was this vulnerable, confessing to the Father that he was experiencing what we humans face. In his humanity, he tasted the same discouragement, the same despondency, the same woundedness. He was having the same thoughts I'92ve had about my own life: '91This isn'92t what I perceived was promised. I'92ve wasted my strength. It has all been in vain.'92'94

Reading those words made me love Jesus all the more. I realized Heb_4:15 is not just a clich'e9: our Savior truly is touched with the feelings of our infirmities, and was tempted in all ways as we are, yet without sin. He'92d known this very same temptation from Satan, hearing the same accusing voice: '93Your mission is not accomplished. Your life has been a failure. You'92ve got nothing to show for all your labors.'94

What exactly was Christ'92s mission? According to Isaiah, it was to bring Israel back to God, to return the tribes of Jacob back from their wickedness and idolatry: '93to restore the preserved of Israel'94 (49:6). The historian Josephus wrote of Israel'92s condition in Jesus'92 day: '93The Jewish nation had become so evil and corrupt in the time of Christ, that had not the Romans destroyed them, God would have rained fire from heaven, as of old, to consume them.'94 In short, Christ was sent as a Jew among Jews, to deliver God'92s people from the power of sin and set every captive free.

Jesus testified, '93He hath '85 made me a polished shaft; in his quiver'94 (49:2). The Father had prepared him from the foundation of the world. And the mandate given to Christ was clear: '93He hath made my mouth like a sharp sword'94 (49:2). Jesus was to preach a word as sharp as a two-edged sword that would pierce the hardest of hearts.

So Christ came into the world to fulfill the will of God by reviving Israel. And he did just as he was commanded, with not a single word spoken or deed performed except as directed by the Father. Jesus was in the very center of the will of God, given total authority and the most powerful message. But Israel rejected him: '93He came unto his own, and his own received him not'94 (Joh_1:11).

Think about this: Jesus preached to a generation that saw incredible miracles: blind eyes opened, deaf ears able to hear, the lame made to walk. Yet Christ'92s miracles were repudiated and belittled, and his words were ignored, unable to pierce the people'92s hardened hearts. In fact, his preaching only angered the religious sects. His own followers decided his word was too hard and walked away from him (see Joh_6:66). In the end, even his closest disciples, the chosen twelve, forsook him. And the nation that Jesus came to gather back to the Father cried, '93Crucify him.'94

To any human eye, Christ failed utterly in his mission. We find him near the end of his ministry standing over Jerusalem, lamenting over Israel'92s rejection, weeping over his apparent failure to gather them, his hopes seemingly dashed. '93O Jerusalem, Jerusalem '85 how often would I have gathered thy children together, even as a hen gathereth her chickens under her wings, and ye would not! Behold, your house is left unto you desolate'94 (Mat_23:37-38).

Imagine the pain Christ must have felt to utter these words. I can only speculate, but I believe this was the moment when Jesus cried out, '93I have labored in vain.'94 I picture Satan whispering to him at that moment, '93Here is the house you were called to save, and you'92ve left it desolate.'94

For a short season, Christ was allowed by the Father to experience this human despair over a sense of failure in life: '93I'92ve given my all, my strength, my labors, my obedience. What else could I do to save this people? All my labor has been in vain.'94 He felt what every great warrior of God down through the ages has experienced: the temptation to accuse himself of failure, when a clear mandate from God seemed to go unfulfilled.

Why would Jesus, or any man or woman of God, speak such despairing words as these: '93I have labored in vain'94?

How could the very Son of God make such a statement? And why have generations of faithful believers been reduced to such despondent words? It is all the result of measuring little results against high expectations.

You may think, '93This message sounds like it applies just to ministers, or to those called to do some great work for God. I can see it being meant for missionaries or the Bible prophets. But what does it have to do with me?'94

The truth is, we'92re all called to one grand, common purpose, and to one ministry: that is, to be like Jesus. We'92re called to grow in his likeness, to be changed into his express image. You simply can'92t be a Christian unless this is your calling, your single goal in life: '93I want to become more and more Christ-like. I want to be set free from all self, all human ambition, all jealousy, impatience, bad temper, thinking evil of others. I want to be all that Paul says I should be if I'92m to walk in faith and love. Lord, my heart yearns to be like you.'94

What high expectations! And you have all of God'92s promises to support you. You hold the two-edged sword of God'92s Word in your hand, and you'92ve purposed in your heart to be like Jesus. So you go to work at becoming like him.

In only a short time, some wonderful changes begin to happen. You'92re more patient. Every fleshly reaction that rises up in you, you put down, saying, '93That isn'92t like Jesus.'94 Your family and friends, neighbors and coworkers have noticed you'92ve become kinder. Each night, you'92re able to soak in the victory of that day, and you congratulate yourself: '93I made it! I was kinder today. This was a good, Jesus-likeness day.'94

Several months ago, I wrote a message titled '93Called to Be Christ-like.'94 In it I said that Christ-likeness starts by being like Jesus to those who are closest to us. I truly believe this. Therefore, if you'92re married, that person closest to you is your spouse. So I set out to become the most Christ-like husband any man could be. And I worked at it, striving to be more patient, understanding and caring.

That first week, I struggled to put down eruption after eruption. I kept reminding myself, '93Jesus wouldn'92t do that. He wouldn'92t say what I want to say. So I'92m not going to do it. I'92m going to be like him.'94

At the end of the week, I asked my wife, Gwen, '93Do you see more of Jesus in me?'94 She answered, '93Yes, I do.'94 I was so encouraged. I thought, '93This is it! Finally, after all these years, I'92ve discovered what it takes to become more like Jesus.'94

Then the worst week followed. I lost my Christ-likeness at seemingly every turn. At the end of that week, I asked Gwen, '93How would you judge me now?'94 She said, '93More like Paul.'94

I'92d like to tell you that every day, in every way, I'92m becoming more like Jesus. But my human struggle in the flesh to be Christ-like simply didn'92t work. And the fact is, it never will. I still battle with un-Christ-like thoughts, words and feelings. My flesh does not have the ability to cast out flesh. That work is done by the Holy Spirit alone: '93If ye through the Spirit do mortify the deeds of the body, ye shall live'94 (Rom_8:13). In short, yielding to the power of the Holy Spirit is the only way to become truly Christ-like.

It'92s in the midst of this battle with our flesh that we often fall into despondency. We'92re tempted to think, '93I'92ve been called, anointed, taught well by godly ministers. How could I continue to think such fleshly thoughts?'94 At times we succumb to the same thoughts that have echoed throughout the centuries among God'92s people: '93I have labored in vain. I'92ve wasted all my time and strength. I'92ve never seen what God had promised me. I'92ve failed to bring my thoughts and actions to any kind of fulfillment.'94

Ask any young person who'92s drifting away from Christ why he or she has grown cold toward him.

If you were to ask such a young man or woman, '93Why have you gone back to your old ways?'94 you'92d find the same demonic lie planted in their head: '93I did my best. I prayed and read my Bible. I went to church, and I witnessed to my friends at school. I put every effort into living righteously. But I never got the miracle I needed. My prayers weren'92t answered, and I wasn'92t delivered. After all of that, I ended up a failure. I couldn'92t shake the thought that it was no use, that my flesh would never change. It was just a waste of time. I felt like everything I'92d done was in vain.'94

What about their righteous parents, the moms and dads who'92ve prayed for their drifting child so diligently? God gave them promises and they clung to them, crying out to him in faith. But as time passed, their child never responded. Now these devoted saints endure the same awful lie: '93You'92re a failure, laboring in vain. You'92ve wasted your strength all these years. The battle has only worn you down. It'92s all been for nothing.'94

Many reading this message are in despondency because they haven'92t experienced the promise God made to them. They'92re not jealous over the Lord'92s blessing on others. They don'92t compare themselves to somebody who seems to be enjoying a miracle. No, they'92re looking at their own life. And they'92re comparing what they believe God promised them with the way things look right now. To them, their lives look like a complete failure.

As they examine their walk in all honesty and sincerity, it appears they'92ve made little progress. They'92ve done everything God has told them to do, never veering from his Word and commands. But as time has gone by, all they can see is failure. And now they'92ve become crushed, wounded in spirit. They think, '93Lord, has this all been in vain? Did I hear the wrong voice? Have I been deceived? Has my mission ended up in ruins?'94

There are two things I want to impress on you with this message.

First of all, you now know from Isa_49:1-26 that the Lord knows your battle. He has fought it before you. And it'92s no sin to endure such thoughts, or to be cast down with a sense of failure over shattered expectations. Jesus himself experienced this and was without sin.

Second, it'92s very dangerous to allow these hellish lies to fester and enflame your soul. Jesus showed us the way out of such despondency with this statement: '93I have labored in vain '85 yet surely my judgment is with the Lord, and my work with my God'94 (Isa_49:4). The Hebrew word for judgment here is '93verdict.'94 Christ is saying, in effect, '93The final verdict is with my Father. He alone passes judgment on all that I'92ve done and how effective I'92ve been.'94

God is urging us through this verse: '93Stop passing a verdict over your work for me. You have no business judging how effective you'92ve been. And you have no right to call yourself a failure. You don'92t yet know what kind of influence you'92ve had. You simply don'92t have the vision to know the blessings that are coming to you.'94 Indeed, we won'92t know many such things until we stand before him in eternity.

In Isa_49:1-26, Jesus heard the Father say in so many words: '93So, Israel is not yet gathered. Yes, I called you to bring in the tribes, and that has not happened in the way you imagined it. But that calling was only a little thing compared to what is coming for you. It'92s nothing in comparison to what I have in store. I'92m going to make you now a light for the whole world. Israel will eventually be gathered; that promise is going to be fulfilled. But you will become a light not only to the Jews, but to the Gentiles. You'92re going to bring salvation to the whole earth.'94

'93Though Israel be not gathered, yet shall I be glorious in the eyes of the Lord, and my God shall be my strength. And he said, It is a light thing that thou shouldest be my servant to raise up the tribes of Jacob, and to restore the preserved of Israel: I will also give thee for a light to the Gentiles, that thou mayest be my salvation unto the end of the earth'94 (Isa_49:5-6).

Dear saint, while the devil is lying to you, saying that all you'92ve done is in vain, that you'92ll never see your expectations fulfilled, God in his glory is preparing a greater blessing. He has better things in store, beyond anything you could think or ask.

We'92re not to listen to the enemy'92s lies any longer. Instead, we'92re to rest in the Holy Spirit, believing him to fulfill the work of making us more like Christ. And we are to rise up from our despair and stand on this word: '93Be ye steadfast, unmovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that your labor is not in vain in the Lord'94 (1Co_15:58).

The time has come for you to abound in your labors. The Lord is telling you, in essence, '93Forget all your '91failure thinking'92 and leave that behind. It'92s time to get back to work. Nothing has been in vain! There is much more coming for you, so stop moping and rejoice. I haven'92t bypassed you. I'92m going to do abundantly more than you could think or ask!'94

By: David Wilkerson